Over thinking, again

There is pain in my body. Not a physical one, it’s more of a pain in my soul. It hurts because i feel lost in this huge world who looked so cute and easy to understand 1 year ago, but now it feels like an unsafe place to be. I’m not saying that i want to die or something, but it gets so scary sometimes. When i’m alone my imagination gets crazy and i start to see things. I feel like there is so much things present in our daily life that no one seems to notice. I’m scared of what i don’t know, and in a way i don’t want to know the truth but let me suppose; what if, when we’re asleep spirits of dead people can get in our head and communicate with us using characters in our dreams? What if, someone is sitting right next to you right now, reading this over your shoulder? What if, everyone who discovered a ghost got possessed by it and that’s why some people suddenly go crazy and suicidal? What if, there is a reason we were all afraid of looking under our beds when we were young? Too many questions. It’s so frustrating to think. The world is so big and everything we discovered in it is scientific things. But there is like a shade hiding the truth that nobody wants to take off, where do they go all those souls of dead bodies? No, they don’t decompose with the rest of the human body that’s for sure. I just want to go sleep in my parents bed, its warm and cosy. I’ll sleep between them, just like the old days.